You deserve it! These are three words that my blog guests Jenn wrote under one of my posts. She was referring to my studio, space I adore and want to be in every minute of my time. I read the whole comment a few times but it was those three words that got me thinking all day. Every time I replayed them in my mind a small doze of shame twisted my heart. You don’t deserve it screamed that sqeeky fearful voice in my head. You deserve it and see how much you’ve done there whispered my soul. There are so many voices inside of me!
Our whole lives we are being rewarded or punished by others depending on what they think we deserve. We deserve a good raise, we don’t deserve that grade… and it goes on and on through our existence. One random person making that decision for us can make us or break us forever. I’ve been made and I’ve been broken. I made others and I broke others.
Today is a very significant day. Today I realized that I need to decide that I am a deserving individual. I deserve it! I deserve the studio of my dreams, I deserve the husband of my dreams (got really lucky here), I deserve friends that love me and care for me, I deserve to hear that I’ve done something right and I deserve to be proud of myself. Only I know where I’ve came from and what I’ve done to be here. Here is the place where I deserve to be!
Friday, October 5, 2012
|Note from my sweet friend Emily. Oh how much I love her!|
|Beautiful flowers from my friends Stephanie and John |
with a message letting me know they are there for me... always.
|Cross from my friend Mel who encouraged me through the toughest |
test in my life Getting citizenship was not a piece of cake :)
|A quote Emily left on my desk not too long ago. So sweet!|
|My friend John gave me those magnets. He comes to my cubie from time to time |
and creates interesting patterns that I keep admiring daily. I LOVE MAGNETS!!!
Take a moment and think of all the acts of kindness you've received from your friends. Life is full of those!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
NO WAY!!!! I am so so so excited!! Like super excited!
I’ve taken over the dining room in the front of our house for my studio after we moved in a year ago but I knew that some day I would have to move into a small corner of that room to make a space for all the office furniture we were going to buy. James and I spent weeks in that little room in the past few months trying to figure out the best way to make it manly office/quirky studio looking space. We finally made a decision to order custom furniture, picked a sassy dark finish and... I could not commit. I was just not feeling that dark, preppy color in my studio. So today I told James what my dream for the room was: a small couch, lanterns, light colored furniture, YELLOW everywhere, my birdie, and other very quirky stuff and he said: We could just make a space for the computer 'here' and the room would look great! NO WAY!!! HAPPY FEET DANCE!!! I am so so so excited! My studio/his office will be done soon!
For now you can take a look at what it looks like now :)